Devotion for Monday, July 20 from Bree Hodel
Hey all, Bree here! A little while ago Doug asked me about joining in on the checking in emails. I'll be honest, I'm intimidated by the idea of everyone hearing from me rather than just students! But as I thought and prayed about what I should say the Lord met me with some interesting ideas.
First, I want to ask for permission from all of you. I want permission to be honest, and admit some things that have been on my heart. This checking in may be more of a journal entry for me rather than a presentation.
Second, I want to offer my permission. Remember in grade school when we would need permission slips from our parents to take part in certain extracurricular activities? Consider this a permission slip from me to you to also be honest (and push back if you want!). I don't have all the answers, I am just a sucker for a good conversation!
Okay here goes.
Monday, July 20, 2020
What is going on? This could sound silly, but I am all over the place mentally lately. Social distancing has me on social media a LOT, and it is full of politicians, protests, statistics, memes, and the ever present highlight reel of everyone I went to high school with. I can't help but question my own life; am I doing enough? Am I furthering the problems we're dealing with? Am I boring? Am I being honest? Am I good enough? What is the truth? What are the actual facts, and what's happening before and after this short clip I'm seeing?
I could be wrong, but I don't think I'm the only one asking these questions. Being far away from my friends and the routines I've created the past few years has me grasping for any sense of security and normalcy. I want answers to my questions, and honestly I want them yesterday!
I keep asking myself, and talking in circles with the people around me; the people I know agree with me. And that right there is something the Lord has flagged. I spend so much of my time talking to people who agree with me. I have curated my little corner of the internet to feed into only what I want to hear about, and I have surrounded myself with people who sound, look, think, and act like me.
I think in order to grow, in order to attempt understanding, I need to take a step back. COVID-19 has forced us to all take a step back from what we've gotten used to. And I need to do that in all areas in my life. Take a big step back and ask the Lord what deserves rushing back into.
James 1:19 puts it this way: "let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger..." I don't know about you but I don't think this verse describes me very well lately!
So here is my permission to you; take a moment to rather than speak, listen. Look around and notice. Ask questions, not for answers but for opportunities to learn. Allow yourself to say "I don't know."
Because we don't. But the Lord does, and we can find security and normalcy in that. His truth's are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. How about that for some good news!
I hope you are having days full of appreciation, growth, practice, and your horizons are expanding. Also, the people you went to high school with are only showing the good things. I promise ;).